I have to give a shout out to my friend Jordan for giving me the title of this blog. He put a note up on Facebook with the words to a song called “Be Still” and I needed the words to it this morning. It’s a song by StorySide B and is actually my MySpace song. I put it up about 2 weeks ago. I love the song and right now it really defines how I feel.
Brady being sick is really getting to me. It’s so hard to see her struggling in any way. She had to have another blood transfusion and they tried 7 times to get a vein before they had to put the IV in her head. She looks like some experiment gone wrong. They also had to go up on her oxygen AND she has a knot on her arm that is possibly more infection. It just seems like she is at the struggling up a hill and could make it to the top or fall to the bottom.
I have to admit sometimes it’s hard to see God through the pain, which is where I was this morning before I got a reminder from an unknowing friend. I see how God uses people to lift others up. I don’t know why Jordan decided to write this note, maybe God whispered in his ear. All I know is that seeing that song reminded me that God is God, and that he is there for me and never leaves me. The following is the chorus from the song I have been talking about. The words mean so much to me right now.
When I feel like caving in
My heart my soul is wearing thin
I just want to give up
Nothing seems at all to add up
Can you hear me Lord?
My face is down upon the floor
It’s then you whisper in my ear
Be still and know I’m here
Brady Faith was brought into this world 12 weeks premature. This was a result of mommy having pre-eclampsia and there being a reverse blood flow to/from the placenta. Brady wasn't growing like she should and it would have just gotten worse. She weighed 1lb 7oz and was 11 3/4in long. To learn more about Brady and her family click here.